Monday, February 27, 2006


You know you're working hard if you go to work to have a rest, LOL. I do feel like that now. We worked in the new appartment the whole weekend and we managed to get some walls painted. We also assembled the bedroom furniture and started on the kitchen. The bedroom turned out a bit darker than I actually wanted, but it's still very nice. It's more peachy than cream now and with the birch furniture looks really bright and happy. We only need curtains and quilt in more jewel colours or it will look like a teenage girl room LOL. We still like it very much, though.

The kitchen is started, but we couldn't place the cabinets yet, as the plumbers were not ready yet. Hopefully today they will be finished today.

It's fairly cold here, but the weather is great and it's such a pity to spend the whole time inside, but hopefully next week we'll have some time to rest and walk a bit. I also awfully miss my stitching. I have so little time, but I am so out of my stitching slump and enjoying and missing my MotG so much. I want her finished for the new appartment as soon as possible, LOL. STBXH took every single framed stitching piece, so I have nothing to put on the walls now. Thank's God I had a couple of my favorite pieces not framed yet, so I can go through them and frame, sometimes procrastination turns out to be a good thing :)

I also wanted to tell you more about the house we'll be living in. It's a fairly old house, XIXth century I think. our appartment is on the 1st floor in the front house. The house belongs to the Catholic Church :) But the most amazing thing about it are the neigbours! See, living in Berlin you're used to not knowing your neighbours, unless they make parties during the night and you can't sleep LOL. In the last couple of days we've been working on the appartment we've been greeted by 4 (!) families living there!!! Two of them have little girls, around Alizée's age, they all attend the Catholic daycare DD will go to either in April or September and one of the girls was born the same year as DD, which means they will be in the same daycare group and then school (we want to send her to the Catholic school too). And the neighbours living on our floor are Polish too and have a little girl. I'm falling in love with house really fast, LOL.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Last weekend & co.

I know I am usually whining in my blog, so i thought I'll let you know if I have good news. It seems that DBF has changed a lot as far as his kids are concerned. Of course he's not perfect but there's lots of progress and as long as it's going to continue I'm really happy with it. The bad thing was that DD has been sick again and I had to stay with her at home, instead of going to the swimpool with everyone else :( They had much fun and I'm looking forward to going there as well.

I made nice progress on MotG instead, but I'll post a picture when we get our camera back (a friend of us borrowed it). She's stitching up beautifully and I love working on her :) So much fun. DsD asked me last weekend if I could teach her to stitch, which of course made me very happy. I need to get some Aida 11ct and some big needles for her (I'm using 28 ones), but I hope it's going to be fun :) I'll post a pic as soon as she stitches anything :) She's very diligent, so I think she may turn into a really good stitcher. I used to collect UK mags and many of them have special designs for children, now I can use them even before DD gets old enough to try them out :) (she's already interested in stitching and loves to help me to pull the needle through the fabric, so actually MotG is our WIP, not only mine).

We're moving in two weeks and there's so much still to do, sigh. I only lived in this appartment for several months, so I am not looking forward to moving, but the new appartment is very pretty and so much more spacious. I'll be happiest when we're already moved in :)

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Johari Window

I shamelessly stole the idea from Belinda :) But I liked it so much and maybe you'll find a couple of minutes to visit mine: My Johari Window

You can see the results here (please don't take a look before you enter your description, if you want to do it, of course): The Results


Monday, February 13, 2006

Madonna of the Garden progress picture

I wanted to show first pic of my Madonna of the Garden. All I can say, I am out of my stitching slump, and enjoying her immensely.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Feeling better

I do not feel so depressed over the stepkids issue any more. We talked again yesterday and I feel assured that DBF loves me and DD and wants to work on the problems. I know it's unbelieveably difficult for him, as it is for me. I guess patchwork families are never easy. If the things do not get better soon, I am going to suggest counseling, maybe having a neutral observer could help. For the moment I'm going to wait and see some more.

I am so proud how well we seem to solve other issues and would be heratbroken if we split up, because of this one.

Today I'm going to visit a library and cover myself with good books :) I also hope to get some stitching time in the evening and put some work into my thesis. I am working on Madonna of the Garden and after some changing of the mind I decided on Platinum Cashel linen. Yes, it is my favorite fabric of all times LOL, but I think she's going to look beautiful on it. The purples and the greens look very good already so I'm positive I will love the end result. As much as I adore hand-dyes I have always been slightly disappointed with the way the design loosk in the end. I like my background to be just background :) I must say, though, that I've seen a couple of perfect matches, so I'm not all lost here ;)

We also need to discuss sommer holiday planning, which means fun, fun, fun :) Especially as my Mom will be taking DD for a month and we're going to go somewhere for two weeks all alone! I crave time alonee with DBF so much :) I think we're going to go to the mountains and do some hiking/climbing. We'll be also taking the kids to the Baltic Sea for two week in July, we'll be camping (with tents) so this will surely be fun as well.

And we're going to watch the IKEA catalogue again this evening, we're choosing kitchen and bedroom furniture... I love it :) I'll post a link when we've decided on what we want (we're 80% sure at the moment).

Tuesday, February 07, 2006


I think it's time for an update :) Not much has changed here lately, just the usual ups and downs. Work is on the up side, I am making progress on learning Java, also managed to get some productive work done already. My motivation is up again and I'm actually happy to be on the new team. I think I am going to learn a lot and it's the right path to go for me.

School is so-so. I managed to finish all the projects, so I'm left with the thesis only. I haven't made any progress on this and I'll need to ask for an extension, but there shouldn't be a problem with obtaining that (except for that I'll need to pay for it). My grades really suck this term, I have never had such bad grades in my life. I didn't expect it to be different, though, and my average should still be good enough to grant me an overall A on the diploma, of course, if I get As for thesis and defence. We'll see.

Most of the paperwork has been done. I haven't filed for a divorce yet, though. I don't know why. I rarely rememebr that I'm still married and almost never think about the past. I know I need to stop procrastinating on this goal, visit my lawyer and file. It's going to take a century anyway, sigh.

At home... I'm afraid it's the down side. We've been fighting a lot. Things got much better, but there's a huge unsolved underlying issue between us. DBF's kids. They are really spoilt and his son is severely ADHD. When we talk DBF admits we need to introduce structure and rules, but he never really tries to do it. One tear, one sad face and he forgets everything.

I do understand that he misses them awfully and doesn't want to end up with estranged children and *I* could live with it. Clenching my teeth, but I could. But DD is having serious issues. She has night terrors on the nights the kids are with us. She doesn't understand why DBF behaves so unfair towards her, when the kids are with us. She doesn't understand why her behaviour has consequences and the other kids' doesn't. She doesn't understand why she has to share her toys and is not allowed even to look at theirs. And the kids are with us 5 out of 14 days, so it's not that seldom actually... Not mentioning of course that his behaviour is harmful to his kids too, he doesn't behave like a father and they do not or very seldom perceive him as a father.

I just don't know what to do. We do communicate. DBF always says I'm right and he wants to change but it just doesn't happen. He is normally able to modify his behaviour, we worked through some issues successfully. It's just this one problem, that makes me think about moving out... And I hate the thought...