Friday, October 05, 2007

Weekend's coming...

3rd of October is a holiday in Germany, so we spent it outdoors with a kite. The wind was very weak, so it was more socializing than anything else, especially because everybody in berlin seems to be flying a kite on Oct 3rd ;) We'll try once more on another day.

My German course is still making fun. Yesterday we had Rilke as main topic, so I googled for his biography afterwards. I must admit he's seems to have been a very unpleasant person, but his poetry is beautiful, so I guess I'm able to forgive him ;) I need to read a bit more of German literature, I somehow stopped learning anything new about literature since I left school, LOL.

I am also doing quite OK mood-wise. I worry a lot about financial problems and about not finding a job soon, but otherwise, I'm OK.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Long time no see

Yes, I know I've been disappeared for much too long. Life got busy in some ways and really plain in others, so I guess I just needed time to sort everything out before being back. But I want to get better at updating my blog more often, I guess I need some kind of structure back in my life.

There have been some major changes in my life again. We're still together with DBF, which is a small wonder itself. But his ex moved 800km away from here and his boys decided to go with her. So we're down from 3 kids to only one at home. Quite a change and not an easy one for DBF.

DD is doing good. She had some problems coping with all the changes last spring, but it seems she completely settled down now and is happy with the situation as it is.

I lost my job in June and have been unemployed since then. I am working on writing my thesis and learning for the Java Programmer Certificate exam, but I must admit I am not doing best at home. I am really not meant to be a stay at home mom and especially at the beginning I had huge problems coping. I thing the depression is over, but it's still no fun to be unemployed. Even though I have so much more time now, I am not back at any hobbies. The only thing I am doing purely for myself is an advanced German language course. It's mainly about literature, writing and advanced language issues and it makes fun, even though I use German at home every day. I have been thinking about taking something similar in English, because I am really forgetting it much too fast.

As finding a job in Berlin seems so difficult, we've been thinking about moving to south-west Germany recently. That's where DBF comes from, so at least we'd have a tad of social network at first. It's still nothing we've decided for sure, but it's getting more probable with evsry day I am unemployed. I am not very happy about this decision, I'd rather stay here, but I may not habe much choice.